i seem to be making plenty of startling discoveries about myself these days.
my first ever startling discovery was when i discovered that i preferred Eugenes rather than Eunices. i used to like my sunday school teacher very much. that was like primary school. and i didn't realize why i preferred to have a male sunday school teacher to a female one. every guy in my sunday school class had like a favourtie female sunday school teacher. i was the only one who liked the guy one. the floppy basketball hair. the cute youthful looks. the intellectual face behind those glasses.
alas now he looks like shit cos he got married already. to a similar looking girl with an intellectual look behind a pair of glasses. he's now fat, ugly and bogged down with kids.

thus, advice to straight guys: don't legally bind yourself to a woman. not worth it. sign the membership form to a lifetime of men instead.

today's discovery has to do with the way i deal with my finances.
today's my off and so i was taking the bus to town. i was actually listening to my ipod video. remember the 30GB with the horrendous crack down the middle of the screen? yeap. that's the one. read my previous blogpost for more details. so i placed my ipod along the side of the bus seat somewhere and fell asleep. i woke up in a daze and immediately left the bus because it was my stop. and i just left the bus just like that. never think about my ipod or anything like that. i only realized i lost my ipod when i reached for it at the wireless cafe to update the playlist.

the point was not so much about i lost my ipod (it wasn't worth much anyways, cracked screen and plenty of scratches, $200 worth i guess). the really freaking thing was that the first thing that popped into mind was the thought

'never mind lor, lost lost i also don't really care. just get a new one lor'

lemme clarify something first. i may be overseas working and getting an allowance with extra benefits and shit. but i'm no rich prick or anything like that. in fact, i barely have enough for allowances and shit after i spend on food at the canteen at my workplace. but the fact that i could think of something like that straghtaway without much though really scares me. it's not right lah.

so in similar logic, when my mom dies, my first thought would be like 'good riddance, about time my dad got remarried!!'?

i hate change. especially when it involves me.

and yes. i bought a new 2GB ipod nano.

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